I have been perplexed lately about the disturbances I have felt in my heart. I listen to others talk, and hear their ideas concerning leading people to the Lord, and about how they believe they should live. All are good, but there is something that is unsettling to me.
I have been praying and seeking God about this. I did not know if I was missing something, believing falsely, or what was going on. I began to look up the word ‘reasoning’, because this is what seems happening in the conversations. And, in my Christian walk, I do not count on reasoning, but simply believing God.
I read John 8:47 and this helped me a lot. John 8:47 (KJV) He that is of God heareth God's words: ye therefore hear them not, because ye are not of God. Based upon my own experience with Jesus, it was not argument or justifications, but the overwhelming presence of God and the realization that this was the truth.
During the 70s, the “Jesus Movement” began. Many of my friends were being saved, and we talked about their experience. I was not moved, and did not feel a great need to ‘find Jesus’. I was working on a poem about the origins of creation, and asked a woman I worked with, who was a pastor’s wife, if I could come and speak with her and her husband about some questions I had about descriptions in the Bible. We talked for a long time about the giants in the land and some aspects of what the Word said about creation. As I left, the pastor suggested I read the book of John.
Not knowing the Bible, but remembering the word John, I got out the Catholic bible my mom had given me when I was married. I opened it, found John 1, and began to read. This is what happened.
In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God, and the Word was God...and the Word became flesh and dwelt among us. John 1:1-14(NKJV)
Agnostic eyes read these words.My brain translating concepts into thoughts:Flowing electricityThrough the fortifications of all I knew.Stunned, I stared at lilac walls,Laced with the afternoon sun.I sat, looking at the big book in my hand,My brain clicking internal binary codes,Programming inroadsThrough disconnected memory filesAnd suddenly,Organized sense awoke.A veil was lifted:I gasped, “I’m saved.”
I believe that God calls to people. Some heed His call, and others, sadly, do not. What I have learned is that the believer's responsibility is to live the Word of God everyday. What does this mean? Being instant in and out of season, ready to respond at a moment's notice, looking for ways to share the love of Christ with everyone, knowing that Jesus knows who belongs to Him.
I do not believe I need to argue or reason with people. I have read a few Christian websites that attempt to answer questions for people who don't believe. Yet I know from experience God calls to people, and those with willing hearts will come.